Two Sides of the Same Coin

Heads or Tails?

They tell you that you have to choose one or the other.

Sometimes though the choice is both. The coin has two sides but it is still just one coin.

My coin has different sides than heads or tails.

Best or Worst.

My coin is for the last year of my life.

Sometimes I feel my coin is laying on the bad side.

I feel stressed to the max
I feel beaten down
I feel unrecognized for my work
I feel attacked
I feel burned out
I feel lost...

But even more than my bad side and bad days, the good side is stronger.

I moved across the country alone
I got into and started law school
I met some of the most incredible people and I am lucky to call them friends and a part of my family
I have received support from my family back home
I have gotten to go on incredible adventures
I  get to  live with my best friend
I have a roof over my head and my stomach is always full

Some days I think my coin flips itself to the bad side. I focus on the problems I have had and ones I am currently facing.

The days have been long and filled with hurt and pain at times, but the weeks and months have gone by at superhuman speed.

I have been having a hard time but I want my coin to stay on the good side. I want to appreciate all that my year has given me while also appreciating the lessons I have learned from the bad.

The bad doesn't last forever and neither does the good. The door opens and shuts, sometimes from circumstance but often by our actions.

Try to keep the door open, even when it is easier to shut the door and keep everyone out.